An Inquisitive Nature

Love lies in between the case of life and the case of death.  Both are included within us, consistently and constantly, though rarely balanced in regard to one another.  Although I am certain life is the mirror image of death, I'm not entirely sure what to do with either of them.  Indeed, the very nature of perceiving without any prejudice may very well be impossible in my lifetime.  However, the obvious tendency of my tenderness to recoil from the light of the perceived social commentary, proves me no better at reaching out to you than to anything or anyone else.

Ever since I can remember, I have been in possession of an avid curiosity of how my mind works in relation to the social contract, which is inherent in all aspects of living.  It will almost certainly lead to my downfall.

You see, our individual concepts of life and of death are colored by the tendencies of our minds to decipher the collective reality.  Each of our personal spiderwebs of sensing relative intellectual, physical, and emotional connections... they affect everything and everybody existing around each of us, much as with the concept of the butterfly effect.  Supposedly belonging to all, it is that which is infinitely interlocking with everyone's contributions to a collective consciousness, accessible to every last one of us.

Three-pronged manifestations (emotional, physical, and mental entities communicated into existence), and their measured scale, expand and contract dependent upon the amount of information being present.  Also, I tend to notice its presence (the 3-pronged manifestation) when I don't feel conscious of my humanity.  That is, it begins when I don't feel my heart and soul's presence within my chest, when my breathing is erratic, when my mind is racing, and when my anger has welled up with an inability to shake off the overwhelming sense of foreboding.  This preoccupation involves solving the mentally, emotionally, and physically taxing matter at hand.  That problem and my preoccupation with solving it, feed off of each other, causing the 3-pronged manifestation to grow exponentially and without bounds.

It is imperative to remember that all three of them are measured internally (to define and communicate a quantified factual statement), and measured externally (to associate proportion in degrees relative to one another).  Without the two associations, it becomes impossible to communicate relevance in all things.  Everything is measured in quantifiable, relative degrees.

It's important to realize that all things in life and death are relative to one another in varying degrees.  Spirituality, science, philosophy, emotion, intellect, nature, music, prayer, birth, death, sexuality...  everything can be quantified and laid out in definitive measurement.  I can't stress it enough: everything is associative in varying, relative degrees.

Keep the complex nature of the inner workings within you.  Allow yourself to feel their totality in every fiber of your being.  Be replenished and fulfilled.  Know what you know; don't know what you don't know, and move on.  Now, in this moment...  let it all go.


“The first gulp from the glass of natural sciences will turn you into an atheist, but at the bottom of the glass, God is waiting for you.”

-- Werner Heisenberg